| Someone was jokingly berating
me the other day because I did not want to go on a vacation with them and
it got to the point that it almost caused a rift between us --- they
actually told me that I am becoming old before my time and that I am missing
out on fun and that I don't have a real life.
They asked me if I ever get
lonely or bored because I do not leave home often other then when necessary
and I do not go to parties or travel and I do not even really like shopping
and I rarely want company or overnight guests dropping in. I absolutely
do not like crowds and I much prefer one on one conversations to a room
full of voices chattering. I do not like loud noises or people talking
to loudly close to me.
( My doctor's say I am Agoraphobic
and that I am becoming more so with time )
Like I told that person I
do not get lonely or bored because I can find enough to do right here at
home to keep me busy and content. Also spiritually I am never alone because
God is with me constantly.
And I most definitely have
a life -- It is just that I prefer keeping to a small circle of people
because I tend to be very much a loner and border on reclusive for the
most part. I can count my closest friends on one hand. My circle is small
by my own choice. My dearest friends know me well and respect my need for
solitude and privacy.
I adore my daughters and
grandchildren and feel so very blessed. I love my home and the family that
lives in it with me. I love my animals and have found such loyalty
and unconditional love in them that I truly do not believe another human
being could ever replace that.
I do not need millions of
dollars to be happy and as far as materialistic things I feel that a piece
of someone's heart is much more important. There is nothing materialistic
that can not be replaced other then a few sentimental items that one collects
over the years from loved ones. But being a part of someone's heart is
irreplaceable.
Do I sound like an eccentric
person yet? LOL Ah well this is just another part of me that
makes me who I am.
I think no matter what happens
in a person's life we have to keep a firm perspective on things and a realistic
attitude. Mostly we must be who we are and not feel we have to be what
others want us to be. A person has to be comfortable in their own skin
and who they truely want to be.
Each night when I say my
prayers I am just thankful that I have gotten through another day on this
earth and that hopefully I will be here to enjoy one more tomorrow.
Until Next Time ...
God Bless
hugs
Misker
Feb. 16 - 2008
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