I sit here before this blank sheet of paper and wonder what I will write about this week. 

I have a heavy heart because 2 of the most special people to me are in very poor health. I feel kind of lost because there is nothing I can do to even help either of them. One of them is terminal and it is only a matter of time and that tears me apart. I would give part of myself if it would help her but I know I can not do that and it would not help if I truely could.

I know that there is a time and a reason and a season for all of us but still it sure hurts knowing that time is getting closer when it is someone you love so much. 

I have a very strong faith and that is what keeps me going most of the time. There are times lately when my faith is shaken but I never lose touch with it and I know that there are things that God knows and we do not and that what He decides is what is right and best. Still I am only human and I do waiver a bit now and then. I can only hope that He understands and forgives me for having a shade of indecision now and then. 

A dear friend that I admire very much - Evelyn - phoned me today and she shared her love and her prayers with me and helped to get my day jumpstarted so I could think properly and get past the tears and helplessness that I have been feeling - for awhile. 

I talked to my dearest friend/sister Donna today for a long time and she helped pull me up by the boot straps so to speak. She has a way of doing that for me as I do the same for her.

I am more clearheaded now about things and I know that the love I share with my 2 friends has stood for so much and will stand for more still. Our lives have been enriched by each other and nothing can change that ever. Not life or death should it come. What I have shared with them can not be changed nor can it be bought or sold. What we will still share for as long as God lets us will be the same.

Again I am hit with the realization that real life happens and there is not much we can do about it except accept it and deal with it the best way we know how. 

I am reminded once again how precious life and true heart friendship and love and acceptance truely is. Make memories with those you love so that you have them to make you smile whenever you need them. Share laughter and tears together and reach out and touch each other heart to heart.

Please if there is someone out there that you need to apologize to for something or someone you need to ask forgiveness from for something that has transpired between you or someone you have not said I love you to for to long -- do it now -- time waits for no one and it slips past before you can blink an eye.

Don't let it slip through your fingers before it is to late for you to do the right thing. You will never forgive yourself if you do not make amends heart to heart.

Until next time.................

God Bless 

Misker